I feel like lately, it’s just one doctor, and one evaluation, and another doctor, and another evaluation… referrals, prescriptions, and doctor visits. Round and round we go. I’m drowning in them. But that’s what this stage of my life is going to be like, right? I knew to expect this and I knew that at this stage, I would be dedicating myself to this sole purpose. For his betterment, because at the end of the day, when you’re a mom, everything you do is for your kids, and to put them forward.
Speech therapy, but my kid doesn’t even speak? I didn’t get it? I didn’t understand how he could already have a delay in an area I didn’t even know to begin practicing. But then I think back to Evan, and what that was like. How he communicated with me at this stage, and the radical difference I see in the development of both my sons.
Logan turns 1 at the end of this month, and there are many areas within his communication skills that he’s falling behind on. There was so much information I absorbed in the 60 minutes that Logan was evaluated.
At first, came the usual onslaught of questions about Logan, from pre-birth to birth, to first months… and so on until where we are today. We’ve been working hard with Logan’s ITDS to have him combine consonant syllable sounds repeatedly, for months, and so far we have no success.
And yes, we know how to tell what Logan wants when he wants it because we know how to distinguish his cry, but that’s about it. Otherwise, his communication skills with us are very minimal or like nil to none.
But I didn’t think anything of this. Why? Sometimes, I forget Logan is turning one because his milestones are telling me my baby is 6 or 7mo. old. He’s just learned to crawl, were just beginning to explore solids, and we can finally sit unassisted on our own. But we still have a long way to go in terms of keeping up with the delay.
He has begun to have exploratory skills in the 6-9mo. levels. However, in his own range, he scored very minimal scattered skills. There are certain areas and skills where he does have full competency, like in the 0-3mo. range.
Well, thank god!
But ask me if Logan can point out his momma?
Or does he understand simple words?
He also has difficulty bringing his arms together repeatedly at mid-line. In other words, no matter how hard we practice, he still doesn’t clap. And listen, I practice that clap…. every. day.
Every. Damn. Day.
We continue to practice all kinds of skills daily, as we incorporate books, photos, and images to help him start recognizing the language. We encourage hand signals like “up” and “bye-bye”, and what’s most important is that we continue to work as a unit, making sure Logan gets the daily stimulation he needs.
But, hey, were working on it! And eventually, as with all things, he will get there.
And that’s the most important thing that I have to keep reminding myself, and telling myself… repeatedly.
He will get there.
All things in life are a phase, and this too shall pass.
After our evaluation, the therapist is suggesting we go full steam ahead and do 30 minute sessions, 3x a week.
We are currently doing PT & OT for a combined total of 3 hours a week, with our latest recommendations for feeding and speech, we’ll be doubling that number to 6 hours a week.
But this is for him, his betterment, and his benefit, and really there isn’t anywhere else I’d rather be.